Last week I wrote a post about believing Romans 8:28 when things don't go your way. I was so thrilled to be able to apply God's Word, take Him at His Word and rest in that comfort. Lesson learned, right? Whew! Glad that's over. Let's apply it and move on.
You know, I've never doubted that verse. I've always believed it with all my heart. It's just not a lesson that I thought I was lacking.
But God has other ideas.
Last night ... well, suffice it to say that I was bowled over. Circumstances were filling me with so much pain I could hardly breathe. As I cried, I told God I couldn't handle this one. This was too much. I couldn't take this anymore.
And then I came across last week's post.
My words sounded so smug with the knowledge that here was one lesson I didn't have a problem with. I was spiritually mature in this area. No worries here.
How wrong I am.
If my smugness offended you, I apologize. I stand before you today, realizing just how far I have to go before I've learned anything as I should. Truly I don't see how any of these circumstances can work together for good. I can't see it. It's not there.
And yet it is. If it was true last week, doesn't it have to be true this week? My head says yes, but my heart says no.
If you actually believe that verse I need to hear from you. I think my believe button is broken.